So, it was premenstrual syndrome. Top the symptoms with hairfall, and voila, I was officially a monster. I need to channel the negativity elsewhere.
It has been eons since I last blogged. I am slowly, but surely, learning the curves at the new work place that blogging took a back seat. Last week, my boss asked me to tag my colleagues along to the ministry's agencies in Johor Bahru, and then, Mukah, all in the name of learning. In between those visits would be a course held for one week in Kuala Lumpur, all day long. In the end, these new curves have led me to a separation. From Khalish.
No more separation anxiety for me. Khalish, meanwhile, has always been comfortable under his grandmother's care. Now, about milk. With mixed feelings, I have decided to wean my baby off breast milk. It started with Khalish's preference for the formula most times he was fed using bottle at the nursery. Expressed breast milk is always precious considering its nutrients and the time spent for expressing, so I instructed them to add the milk in his puree instead. Back at home, full from dinner, he would not nurse as long as I would like him to. Moreover, he has started to sleep straight from 11:30 p.m. to 6:30 a.m. Due the lack of demand and the numbers of outstation tasks, no amount of oat could bring back my standard of producing 20 ounces of expressed breast milk during the day. It has been a measly four to eight ounces lately.
More importantly, Khalish is 80 percent ready. He could now drink from the bottle even when I was near him. The next 20 percent depends on my efforts to feed him using the bottle myself. I tried once, to no avail. The scent of breast milk was too strong then, I guess. As usual, reading, for example,
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At home front, Kamal and I received guests from Kelantan, Terengganu, Pahang, Kuala Lumpur, and of course, Selangor, for the whole of last week. My parents-in-law were among the guests. Thinking how limited our time is with them, Kamal and I decided to let go our Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical tickets to a cousin's in-laws. In compensation, Kamal is treating me to a second honeymoon.
The guests gala started on Tuesday evening, which ended early Wednesday morning, and commenced again from Friday evening until Sunday morning. Too bad for me, Khalish became clingy then. A sign of stranger anxiety, perhaps. Fortunately, my parents understood my situation well. With Kamal helping here and there, they cooked, managed the cleanliness, and entertained the guests. May our maid, who would arrive at the end of March, be inspired by their diligence.
I will be away in a while. Be back in the office by Friday. Then, moonlighting during the weekends. All the while, Khalish will be gallivanting with his grandparents in the East Coast. Lucky me, I have my chums to console my longing for that child of mine.